Blue cold skies welcome me today, into a new day. My first thought as I leave the dream realm, seems to be, how can I embrace, face, engage with this new day, in a way that feels whole? My soul feels burdened from cares. My mind heavy from some dark dreams lingering. A foreboding sense of dread, hovering like the cold winds blowing outside.
What is this darkness? Where is it coming from? Is it some deep unresolved part of my psyche that needs some analysis? Maybe some unresolved issue that needs and is crying out for attention?
Maybe a spiritual battle deeper within, the divide between soul and spirit.
Whatever the source, my conscious mind, shepherds me out into the light of day, encouraging me to engage with the pillars of hope and faith standing stalwart and unmoving.
As I shift toward the new day and away from the dark night, I begin to feel myself. I sense me returning to me, my awakened soul reconnecting with the reality of a new bright sunny cold day to embrace.
As I leave the lingering clouds of doubt and fear behind, I wonder if they will be there to greet me again later, as I lay down my guard and yield to my subconscious, to the underneath, parts of me. This question feels unsettling. Like there is work to be done, scores to be settled, battles to be fought, and I am just in a conscious reprieve from the real true work of my life.
What might I gather today in the land of the light, to take with me into the land of the dark, that can aid me in this crucible? I will be diligent today to find all the hope and faith I can uncover, in the moments of daylight. Maybe the dark will be less dark if I gather the fruits of the light purposefully.
The great sages, speak of the dark night of the soul. I wonder if this is my time to visit this strange place. If it is, I intend to bring as much light with me as I can muster. In the light of this bright morning, I stand in faith and hope, that my darkness will be vanquished, my peace will return to me, and my solid ground of deep connection to God, which has been my lot, will once again be my way in the day and the night.
With hope,
Tony Gilotte
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